Gentle and other poems

Over the past few months, I’ve been involved with a project with UoN LGBT+ Voices. Together with poet Maya Ruhinda, we put together a small booklet of poetry and illustrations.  Here’s a selection of Maya’s poems and my illustrations. A limited number of booklets are available for a small donation to Equation Nottingham. If you’d like one, get in touch with either me or the folks at LGBT+ Voices.



i’m not really happy


every night i used to wash my face with soapy water


splash splash splash


the smile from my face


because i am in love with you


and you are not in love with me





there is something about not going in


there is something about

walking past a gay bar

and not going




that treds lightly upon

my little gay heart

with a sturdy wellington boot


so i go home





for me when i am

in love i am a nicer



i would stroke the strands

of hair on her head to sleep

softly. soundly i


would hold her, embrace

her, feel her naked body

cloaked in the fluffy


white dressing gown she

would wear never did i picture

letting her go


she would flood my whole

existence with the kindness

of a mother,






internalised homophobia


that afternoon i

had sat by the pond and let

it rain on me i


prayed for more rain i

needed to feel clean and to

forget what happened


i had had sex with a girl